May 6

Okay, Collin told me that he didn't mean about PDA (public display of affection). But for him to even talked about it before, it must means he was thinking about it before.. right? He never replied back.
Bastard. sIgH~
But I am happy. :) I got to see him ALOT longer then I usually do. I'm very happy about it.  I tried to cheer him up, I try to make it fun at the skating ring but nothing worked. I fell down first , so he wouldnt get all upset if he fell down first. He never helped me up once, he just kept skating. I tried to show skating can be fun but he never smiled with the skates on as much as I tried to make him smile. I hugged him, kiss him, try to make him laugh, I kept trying to make it fun for him but he didn't smile. At the square, I talked alot because he wouldn't talk or smile much. I had no idea what I talked about. I tried to make him smile, I try to act goofy, affection and talkative. I actually only talked and acted more hyper to make his smile but it all fail. Eventually he got sick of me getting all affective, he said ,summary, to stop it. It sorta hurt to hear him say that. All I try to do to make him smile, I felt depressed. I couldn't make him smile as much as I tried. So when he said to stop... I stopped... atleast I tried.
After the movie that sorta hurt... We were holding hands and all happy. Then he made me let go. and he continue waking with a gap between us. It felt like I was getting punished. I didn't know what I did wrong. All I wanted to get him to do is have a fun time with me.
At the skating ring, I asked is he misarable at the skating ring and he said yes. I almost said 'even with me here?'. But I already knew  that would be a 'yes'.
Now I feel like just saying, if you are tired.. Just don't with the date... you will just be misable the whole time. It didn't seem like he miss me. He texted me way before that he wish I was in his arms or he miss me kissing him, however he never hugged me really, or kiss me. Am I the only one who missed him?