May 7

I feel alone; I'm falling into depression right now. I don't know what is happening. My first period who use to like me, hates me. She fucking kicked my desk like a child with a attutide problem. And she watched me all through class. And everyone is fucking ignoring me like I'm not there. I try to take to people but they don't even look at me when I talk to them. I'm not the type to turn eyes. Is it because my accent I have in my voice? I hate it. I hate my fucking voice, it is annoying and childish. I hate it. I can't pronounce some words right. It isn't my fault I got stuck with it. I hate it! I'm not sure if I'm ugly in the face because I think my face is cute and some what pretty. But I don't like my nose.
I don't know why people are ignoring me, I don't know what I did.
I wish I could have collin here so I could hug him. It would make everything feel better. If I told him this, he would think I'm a idiot or something. Nothing really changed I think. I still worry that Collin will get sick of me and just dump me. I don't think he will however I still have the little thought that says he might.