April 27

I'm getting a bit fatter that is because of the junk food and I'm depress. Its like I am forcing my self to eat or I'll just wont eat at all but at the same time I can only eat sugar nothing else would settle. I want to exceirse and look good for Collin but I don't usually have time. I have to bounce between school, work, sketchbook, homework, and dates with Collin. I rather have a date with Collin and spend all my time with him then exceirse.

You know what....I really miss the night sky... Collin and I date hours had been cut in half. I get to see him for 4 hours but the time that the driving takes up. It is slowly getting less at each date. I only got the last date longer because I try to keep his mind off leaving by attacking him with kisses. T.T does he really want to leave me so badly. Am I making him bored? I know he has to leave for dinner and his 90x thing but can't he just leave later? Can't he just eat dinner later and skip 90x so we can just see the stars again? I know this is a selfish request... that is why I am never going to request it. The last last date, I try to make the time I spend with him longer so I started untying his shoes. It gave me a couple more minutes with him but thats it. I want more time with him, again. But, again this is a selfish request so I'm not going to say anything about it to him.